Tell me, Lord, am I so afraid of doing the wrong thing that I won't even try to do the right thing any longer? And if so, what I am really afriad of? Disobeying You? Unintentionally teaching a lie? Causing someone to stumble? Disappointing You?
Oh. I see. I have fogotten the magnitude of Your grace, forgotten the power of Your Holy Spirit.
So, is the bottom line that I am more concerned about failing in the world's eyes than Yours? Is the problem not so much that I have forgotten Your grace, but that I don't want to trust Your ways of working grace into my life? I want to be used for glorious things that show the world how close I am to Jesus. You want me to die to self–to do mundane things, habilitual things, unexpected things that remind me to depend on You.
I want to do big things, but I keep messing them up. Life doesn't go as I planned. And now I'm afraid to try because I've failed so often.
All I can do is once again throw myself on Your mercy. Please forgive me. Remove the pride that holds me captive. I yield to You, my Creator. I am only a redeemed child because of Your blood and Your mercy. I only know of Your grace because You have sought me and healed me. Come again with new anointing because I believe Your Word and trust Your promises and know that You are greater than my cold, useless pride. You win and I win in You. I will step out in faith because I don't have to be successful or understood or glorified. I am complete in You. And You are completely worthy.
I praise the Name of Jesus. Amen.
